Blue Monday

Do you ever want to just crawl in a hole and not have to see or talk to anyone…even for just like an hour?

That’s where I am today. You know it’s going to be a doozy when it’s only 8:30 and you have cried 3 times. Unfortunately, I have to be a grown up and work like an adult. What I really want to do is cry like a little baby and throw a fit.

I don’t really know why I am so emotional. I think when you are on a journey like so many of us are, you start to expect the worst. I am preparing myself for another disappointment this week. I hate living my life that way. I pride myself on always looking at the positive side of things. I like being the “Sally Sunshine” of the group.

But today…today I just don’t have it in me. I will shut my office door for a while, and cry if  I want to. That’s just where I am. I don’t know if it’s ok, or healthy, or if I’m handling things the right way. Honestly, I don’t really care.

So today I will pray for peace, and comfort, and strength. I am so thankful for a husband and family and friends that lift me up when I am down. I am also so thankful for this little space of mine that I can pour my heart out to. Thanks for listening to my pity party 🙂 Hopefully tomorrow I can come back with some jokes or something.

xoxo
HP