Hope in the Future

Is anyone else utterly exhausted from all of the political messiness going on right now? I have never in my 32 years seen this much division. It’s really tough to see.

Maybe I have lived a sheltered life, maybe I am a bit naive, but I truly do not feel like I have less rights just because I am a woman. I was raised knowing I could be anything I wanted to be, that I could do anything I wanted to do, and I could go where I wanted to go. I was also taught that those things would not be given to me on a silver platter, you have to work for what you want.

I feel sad for the people who feel like we have no hope in our country. The people who feel like because the person they wanted in office didn’t win, all of their rights are stripped away.

We live in an amazing place at an amazing time. Our voices can be heard. Men aren’t out to get you and the president is not your enemy. You don’t have to feel hopeless, God’s got this, ya’ll!!

Ok, I think I’m done. Here is a picture of a baby goat to make you feel better. Enjoy.




New Year, Same Me

I’m going to admit it, I am a big old grump about this New Year. I have never really been into making resolutions, but I am REALLY not into it this year. They never work for me. I don’t like giving things up and I don’t like making a goal to change something because I always end up failing.

Do I want to be healthier? Of course! Would I like to drop a few pounds? Who doesn’t! Would I like to spend more time on things that are important instead of worry about little things? Sign me up!

But making a whole list of things to give up or completely change my life? No thank you. So instead of resolutions, I am making some SUGGESTIONS for myself in this new year.

-hit the gym regularly. We were doing really well at the end of last year, so staying on that plan will be easy.

-eat a few less calories in a day. We love to cook, and we cook a ton. So I am suggesting maybe adding a few more vegetables to what we already cook.

-less guilt about things. If I want to eat a chicken fried steak, I will. No guilt. If I want to have a glass on wine on a Monday after work, no guilt. My suggestion to myself to go to the gym more will help with the guilt!

-pay off more debt. That is our biggest goal this year. We did so good last year, I think we can really make a difference this year.

So there you go, my suggestions for 2017. I pray that this year is the year of more growth, more love, and more adventure. (also more blogging…my last suggestion)

Cheers, 2017!!!


Be Still…

If my life had its own theme, I believe it would be “be still”. Honestly, that would probably be the title of my life as well. Nothing has ever come quickly for me. Relationships, jobs, financial stability, marriage, baby.

I have had a blessed life. All of the waiting I have had to do has led me to some really incredible things.

With that said, I don’t like waiting. It’s not fun to be still.

I started this blog as an outlet to share our infertility struggles, and it has been amazing for me. I get to share all of our hard times, and hurts and also other parts of our life that are good! I haven’t touched on the infertility section of my heart in quite some time, so I feel like I owe it to this space to revisit that.

A year ago this month was the last time we stepped foot in our fertility doctors office. My blood test that showed that our IUI did not work was the last appointment that I had. We have been seeking answers, direction, anything at all to point us to where we are to go next in our journey.

Anyone want to take a guess as to what that answer has been.

Be Still.

I do not know why this isn’t happening. I do not know the reasons that everyone is getting pregnant around me, a few of them with the second while I am still trying for my first. I may never understand the reasons. And I have to be ok with that.

But when God tells you to be still, you do it. He has given me more peace in the past few months than I ever thought possible. We are enjoying life. Staying active. Staying positive.

That doesn’t mean I don’t have hard times. I get sad, frustrated, mad. I still want to be a mom, and I don’t think that will go away. But the peace and calmness that God has placed in that void gets me through every one of those emotions. It’s the peace that passes all understanding. And in that alone, I have hope.

“BE STILL and know that I am God.” Psalm 46:10

“Now then, STAND STILL and see this great thing the Lord is about to do before your eyes.”
1 Samuel 12:16

“BE STILL before the Lord and wait patiently for him” Psalm 37:7

“And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:7


Summer Vacation

Wow guys. I have been gone a long time. For the first time in 4 years we took an entire week off of work. We left on July 1 for the lake and did not get back in town until the 10th. It was AMAZING. I sure did pay for it though the week after I got back. Work was insane! Totally worth it!

Anywho, we went to my parents lake house for the entire time. The first part of the week my family was there for the 4th. We got to play, and sleep, and eat, and drink lots of beer, and shoot fireworks. They left on Monday and we spent the rest of the week in complete relaxation mode. We slept, a lot. Got a ton of sun. Ate some great food on the lake, and just really tried to disconnect.

It was just what the doctor ordered. Here are some pics from our week.

I feel like I am finally caught up!! Trying to get back into my routine, work and working out! It’s really nice to get away, but it’s also nice to get back to normal!

I hope you guys have a great day!!



You Matter

Honesty time, I had a bit of a meltdown this weekend. Which shouldn’t surprise anyone with it being Mother’s Day and all, but I thought I had this whole infertility thing under control.

Sometimes I feel like because I am not a mother, I’m not enough. Like I can’t understand something because I don’t have children. Like I am on the outside of some super secret club that I don’t have a key to get in to.

I don’t have the right to be tired. “You think your tired? Just wait until you have kids.” I don’t have the authority to help with marriages. “How can you help my marriage if you don’t know what it’s like to have KIDS in a marriage?”

I also have insane feelings of not being good enough at being infertile. Do I not want children bad enough to go through IVF. Is my desire not strong enough to be a momma if I don’t want to adopt?

As soon as these thoughts lies start swirling around, God sends his messengers to bring me out of my dark places. My sister-in-law sent me this:

Boom. Exactly what I needed.

Guys, life is unfair. It’s going to be tough. God does not do anything that doesn’t have a purpose. I don’t know why we can’t get pregnant. There are no answers on earth why. But He knows. I have to trust that with my whole being.

I have to look at all of my blessings. My husband. I wouldn’t trade all of the babies in the world for him. If our life is meant to be a life full of adventures together, just me and him, then OK. That’s what we will do. My family, the greatest support system, my shoulders to cry on. My friends.

This morning my mom sent me this verse.

He is the rock, his works are perfect, and all his ways are just. A faithful God who does no wrong, upright and just is He. Dueteronomy 32:4.


You guys have an amazing week!!! Go do something that someone with babies can’t do!


road trips, tattoos, & flying planes


Ya’ll, someday I will be back on a regular basis, and I won’t have to apologize for being absent. I am not sure what the deal is. I love this space. I love writing. I love thinking that maybe my words are helping someone out.

I’ve just been…tired. I’ve been busy. I’ve been blah.

With that said, I will give you quick recap of what we’ve been up to!!

  1. took an AMAZING road trip to Fredericksburg. that place has my heart. Tons of wineries, brewries, german food, and patio sitting.


2. Made a pit stop at Luckenbach and enjoyed some Lonestar beers and sunshine.

3. got a little wild in Austin, ended up at a tattoo parlor. Wrote myself a little note, and had someone permanently apply it so my body. And I’m obsessed with it.


4. went on a work trip…got to fly an actual airplane. We all survived.


5. trying to enjoy life

6. trying to get some rest


Well, I think that’s about it!! I for real miss you guys!!! I am in desperate need of some encouragement, so if you have some, please send my way!

I PROMISE I will be back soon!!







Happy 1st blog-birthday

Happy 1st blog birthday, little bloggie! One year down! In honor of my first year with this little space of mine, I went back and re-read all of my posts. I have to say, I feel like I’ve come a long way since day one. Poor little me in March 2015…I had no idea what was to come!!

But guess what guys, I made it! And I’m happy! I’m content! I’ve grown more than I could have imagined!! Just a few things I’ve learned this year:

  1. I knew nothing about infertility when I started.
  2. A year ago, I thought if I had to go through 12 more months of not being pregnant, I would surely die. Well, I didn’t die. Actually…I’ve had a pretty great year!
  3. I have an incredible support system.
  4. We’ve been able to go on some pretty great trips.
  5. IUI’s don’t usually work on the first try.
  6. It’s OK to not always understand why I am in the place I am in, but it’s not OK to dwell on the negativity of it.
  7. The women in this community are amazing.
  8. Piper girl was an awesome addition to our little fam.
  9. My husband is a rock star.
  10. I don’t have to go through a million fertility treatments just because they are offered. Sometimes being still is exactly where I need to be.
  11. Keep an open mind to things you never thought you wanted to do.
  12. God is faithful, always.
  13. If it takes another year, or two, or three…I’m going to make it. I will probably even come out on the other end stronger than I could have even imagined.

Guys, thank you for letting me pour my heart out to you this year. Thank you for the support and kind words and encouragement many of you have sent my way! Here’s to another great year!!



Doing Life

We made it to Thursday people!!! Wooohoooo!!!

We are on the downward slope to the end of February, and it’s turned out to be a pretty busy…but fun..month!! Thought it might be time for a little picture recap!!

One of the best things about living where we do, is we are so close to a lot of fun things. We are a 3 and a half hour drive to our lake house. A couple of hours down to Texas wine country. And also a 3 and a half hour drive to the mountains. It’s actually really convenient!

We decided to take an early Valentine’s trip to Ruidoso for the weekend. (we went the weekend before Valentine’s day, apparently it’s about half the price if you don’t go on a holiday weekend). So we packed up the car, loaded the pup, and headed out. I am not sure why, but I have never been to Ruidoso. Which is insane because it is so close. Ya’ll, it’s a cool little town. We found ourselves the cutest, quaintest lodge called Shadow Mountain Lodge and Cabins up in the  mountains. It was the perfect little place for a couple (and their dog). Great restaurants, and the skiing is not too bad either!!! Super affordable for a quick trip!! We are pretty lazy vacationers so we are usually in bed by 9:00 when we go out of town, but I also hear they have good casinos and some good bars…we were in bed too early to be able to comment on that 😉

Valentine’s weekend was spent at home with my little fam getting A LOT of rest. It was much needed!! 

We have been using HelloFresh once a month since last September, and we are obsessed!!! They send the ingredients directly to your door, and tell you how to make the  most delicious, and fancy, meals!! We have not had one meal that we dislike!

Then last night, we decided to go watch our Red Raiders play #3 OU in basketball. We went out for a little pregame dinner (and drinks) by campus…totally trying to feel like I was in college again! Then headed over for the game! I am so stinking proud of my Red Raiders! Great game! Incredible atmosphere! It’s so fun to see everyone supporting our boys!! Also, taking down the #3 team…and the fact that it was OU just makes it a little sweeter!!! WRECK EM TECH!!








Side note…we need to let other people start taking pictures of us. Too many selfies.

So…that’s our little life these days. I’d say it’s pretty dang good!

I hope everyone has a great weekend! Headed to Dallas this weekend to see our FAVORITES and finish it off with a concert!! COME ON FRIDAY!!


Be the Light


Do you ever feel like you’re just over it? Like you just want to be done with all of it? Like you just don’t understand why you have to go through all of this?

Confession, that’s how I feel.

I. don’t. want. to. freaking. do. this. anymore.

I have been patient. I have searched. I have waited. I have told my story. I have been strong. I have been weak. I have been honest. I have been joyful. I have been sad. I have been at peace. I have been anxious.

I just want to be me again.

The past two days I have been questioning so much. What am I doing wrong? Why us? What did they do right?

You know what else happened the past two days? I have received the same answer on two different occasions. And this is what it is:

“You are the light of the world. A city on top of a hill that can’t be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a basket. Instead, they put it on a lamp stand, and it shines on all who are in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before people, so they can see the good things you do and praise your Father who is in heaven.” Matthew 5:15-16

I am here for a reason. I am in this season for a reason. I have to shine His light.

I have one of my favorite verses printed out and taped to my monitor in front of me, just in case I need a reminder that He is working.

“Now to Him who is able to do IMMEASURABLY MORE than all we ask or imagine, by His power that is at work within us. To Him be the glory in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen.” Ephesians 3:20-21.

He’s working. He’s got this.


I hope you guys have a great Monday!!!!



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