Positive Polly

I am taking time on this gloomy rainy day to throw out a little sunshine. I have been thinking a lot about our future, and preparing myself for the outcome that life may turn out a little differently than I thought it would.

And that is ok.

It’s time for another list. This time I am listing out the positives of being child free, at least for the foreseeable future. I am hoping this list will make some of you guys feel a little bit better too!! Here we go!!!

1. Being able to go to the movies on a random Tuesday at the drop of a hat.

2. Not feeling guilty about getting a $50 pedicure…ain’t got no extra mouths to feed.

3. Spur of the moment road trips.

4. Planning exciting vacations.

5. Sleeping in. Sleeping all night. Sleeping in general…or so I’ve heard.

6. Playing with my cute nephew and all my friends sweet babies…then sending them back to their parents to do the hard part.

7. Happy houring. I am not certain, but I don’t think you are allowed to do that anymore without planning for it.

8. Not having to pay for child care.

9. Spontaneity in general.

Ok…so I hope I am not offending anyone reading that has kids. That is absolutely not my intention. I am just throwing these out there for those of us struggling with what we want so desperately, and not able to have!!

Sometimes thinking of all of the things I am able to do helps me get through this journey. I hope it made you smile a little as well! It’s not an easy road we are on…but it’s the path we have been lead to. There is a reason we are here, girls. Find hope in that!

I hope everyone has an amazing rest of the week, and an even better weekend!!

also…here’s hoping my red raiders have a good weekend too! WRECK EM TECH!!

xoxo
HP

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Memorial Weekend, Anniversary and Pinterest Fails

HELLO my friends!! Looks like I took an extra day of blog-cation after memorial day! I am back in action this week though!

I hope everyone had a great labor day!! We spent a little anniversary weekend at the lake, just the two (and a half) of us!! Ya’ll, we seriously got the PERFECT puppy! She sleeps all night, does great in the car, and loves being on the boat!! WIN! Here’s a pic of my sweet little fam boating this weekend!

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I was craving some s’mores this weekend, but did not want to build a fire. (it was 187 degrees). So, I got on pinterest to see if I could find a recipe for oven s’mores. Luckily for you, I documented my attempt.

  1. I gathered all of the ingredients

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2. Filled the muffin tins with the graham cracker crust, chocolates and mallows, then in the oven they went! So far, so good, right?

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3. They came out perfectly! Yay! Win for me!

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4. Oh, wait, JK. The marshmellows fell, and made a gooey mess in the muffin tins. 😦 no s’mores for us.

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Oh well, I will just wait for the weather to cool down and have the real deal. I prefer my mallows burnt crispy anyways!

Yesterday (9/8) was our 3rd anniversary. We went out for a little happy hour, and then on to dinner at one of our favorite places!!! I didn’t remember to take any pics until I was about 3 glasses of wine in. So, I made a little collage of our attempt at a good anniversary pic. You are welcome.

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Happy 3rd anniversary, my love!!! I can’t believe how lucky I am that I get to spend my forever with you!! You are pretty incredible!! Love you!!

So, there’s my little recap on what’s been going on!! Now I shall get back to tackling this Wednesday!

Happy 4 day work week!

xoxo
HP

failed IUIs and new additions…

Hi pretties! I hope everyone is having a great week!! Wednesday already? Woohoo!!!!!

Well, we got our results from our first IUI this week. It didn’t work. I hate to be negative about the experience, because everything went very well and we did everything like we were supposed to. It just didn’t work. I know they say it usually doesn’t the first time, but I was hopeful! I took a few days after we found out before posting anything, my emotions were pretty raw. We are hurting, but actually in a really good place. We know that we have options, we could stay on track and try it again this month, or wait a bit. We have made the decision to wait. I wasn’t prepared for the toll that it would take on me emotionally. We feel that it’s for the best if we get some rest and rejuvenation.

September is a big month for us, our anniversary and both of our birthdays! I think doing another cycle right on the cuff on this disappointment would be too much for my little heart to take! Last month was TOUGH.

I must say there is probably another reason we are taking it pretty well. I am happy to announce that we have a new addition to our little family.

World, meet Miss Piper!!

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We are obsessed, it was perfect timing for this little nugget! She’s already ready for game day this weekend!!

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Anywho, that’s what is going on in our life! Ready for a long weekend at the lake, and our 3rd anniversary next week!! I LOVE September!! I hope everyone has a great day! I will leave you with one last pic of our little cutie!!

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xoxo
HP

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Only positive thoughts and energy from here on out. Not too much longer!! I hope everyone has a great Thursday!!

xoxo
HP

Monday Rambling

Happy Monday, Pretties. I haven’t shown up around these parts in about a week or so…so I figured a random list of what’s been happenin’ would be ok!

  • School started today. I haven’t had a first day of school in 8 years. wowzas…I feel old. I have to admit, I LOVE seeing all of my friends little babes in their new school clothes ready to start the year. My nephew also started his first day of “school” today. I wouldn’t be a very good aunt if I didn’t show how freaking adorable he is in his outfit. He’s such a stud.

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  • We went to the lake this weekend for some much needed rest and relaxation! I swear I will never get tired of going there. Also, like good little Texas road trippers, we stopped to take a photo next to a giant long horn. You are welcome.

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  • Doing life with this guy is fun. He’s the bees knees. (mustache and all) Also, matching fishing shirts are where it’s at!!Featured image
  • I went in for my progesterone test on Friday, and everything is PERFECT!!! Yay!! One week to go.
  • Speaking of one week to go, a little bit of anxiety has set in. I am going to try my hardest to not be too stressed out this week. I will keep you posted on how that is going!!

Praying today for peace!!! I know I can’t do this on my own!!

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Have a fabulous week, my friends!!!

xoxo
HP

Now…we wait!!!

Well, we did it! We made it through our IUI on Sunday! Without sparing TMI, numbers that needed to be high were SUPER high and everything looked really good! It was a little bit uncomfortable…I wasn’t really expecting that. But all in all I feel really, really good about it!

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The good news is I had (practically) zero side effects to the Clomid or the trigger shot. That was the part I was worried about the most.

Thanks so much to everyone for your kind words, prayers and support. This community of ours is really something special 🙂

I hope everyone has a great Tuesday!! Here’s to a quick and painless TWW!!

xoxo
HP

Go Time

The day for our IUI is set guys…it’s this Sunday. I had my second ultrasound yesterday; my left ovary has 3 beautiful follicles, and my uterus is a picture of perfection. (the nurses words, not mine) My right ovary decided she was too tired to come to the party this month…I feel ya girl!

I take my trigger shot Friday night, and go in Sunday morning.

I am struggling a little bit with my feelings. I know in my head that I need to be positive. I know I should be saying out loud, proclaiming from the rooftops, that this WILL work. That we WILL get pregnant. But I can’t. I can’t bring myself to say those words out loud, because honestly, I don’t know that. I feel that by not saying those words I am protecting my heart a little bit.

I am also not by any means being negative about this whole journey. I would say I am more neutral. Not overly excited, because who really wants to go through all of this. On the other hand I am not NOT excited about it…if that makes any sense at all.

I’m just…neutral.

Anywho, I am probably confusing you guys. Welcome to my husbands world 😉 Gotta keep everyone on their toes, am I right?

So, I will leave you with a little humor for this Thursday morning!! Can’t let life get too serious now can we? 🙂

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xoxo,
HP

First Appointment…

Well, our first appointment for this month’s IUI was yesterday, and it was a SUCCESS. Everything looked great, and we are on track!! I’m feeling really excited about it! Prayers for our peace and continued excitement would be appreciated! I don’t want to go into this stressed out and worried…like I normally do things 😉

I also started Clomid for the first time ever last night. I don’t feel any side effects, but if you guys could enlighten me on some things I should be prepared for, that would be so helpful!!

Tomorrow we leave for Dallas to visit our best friends and their teeny new 2 week old baby. I can’t believe I held out two weeks to see him, it’s almost time!!! Get ready for  some serious snuggles baby Cash!!!

Before I tackle Thursday, I wanted to wrap up with a verse that I studied this morning in my quiet time.

“I will bow before your holy temple, and I will give thanks for your unfailing love and faithfulness, because your promises are backed by all of the honor of your name.” Psalm 138:2

He won’t fail us, not today, not ever!!

I hope everyone has an amazing weekend!!

xoxo
HP

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August…

Whoah guys. Where the heck did July go? How is it August already?

For most people, August is the beginning of a new school year. A fresh start. For me, August has a different feeling to it. August is the month that we start our fertility treatments.

This month we will do our first IUI. I’m excited. I’m hopeful. I’m really really really scared. I’m not scared of the IUI itself, I have already done enough research on that.  I’m scared of the thing you aren’t supposed to say when you go in for treatment…you know…the whole part about it not working.

I know that’s the enemy getting in to my thoughts, and I am fighting my hardest to fight against him.

So for now, I am prying for my first appointment tomorrow! One step at a time!

Here we go!!!

xoxo
HP

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